“STUCKNESS” …by MW Hardwick
Being “stuck” or broken means not growing.
Giving up on things that matter—love for yourself and others
Staying “stuck” is settling and playing life the safe way.
Always avoiding risks and protecting self with heavy metal—
Bracing against life’s un-certain ways and waves of change
Not thinking. It’s giving up ownership and control
Of to whoever or whatever is in front and all around you.
Stuckness is the death of self-respect.
Signaled by being sad when alone…
You avoid decisions… daydream about what could have been.
You talk a lot about what you’re going to do. But do nothing.
You lay awake at nights and sleepwalk by day…
Tightness rises in chest…and dark rings around the eyes tell the story
Little things preoccupy your thinking, irritability and anger become the usual.
It takes more time and energy to get going in the morn
Liquor store guy becomes your best friend, visits are daily…
You are isolated ignoring family and friends
Satisfaction and happiness allude your consciousness
You find every day the same old, same old…talking about the same things day after day
Your sense of purpose — remains loss in thoughts of disaster
There seem to be no answers for this inner turmoil and chaos
Then I awake from this fog and step by step find ways to let the sun in–
I find focus by looking at my strengths and talents I can give to the world…
I start moving slowly again and focus on things to be thankful for
My physical energy starts to charge up
as I grind to start doing rather than thinking…
I take my dark pieces and stump on them and out
And slowly, slowly a vision for a positive future appears.
Foggy and ghost like I find one thing a day to be satisfied with—
an interaction, a sun rise and colorful yellow chickadee or a colorful rose…nature is restorative…
Personal relationships reappear more peaceful and settled
I find meaning in small pleasures—
a cup of coffee or juicy orange…
I focus and think clearly.
I have the courage to face my fears.
I offer compassion to others in need…
I offer forgiveness to others easily.
I am growing and developing.
I sense the presence of a greater meaning in life or higher power.
I have a regular meditative practice.
I feel a sense of joy and peace when I am in the natural world.
I feel a sense of gratitude for my life.
I maintain a balance of saving and savoring the world.
I invest time in making a difference to others or to the world.
I know what I want to be remembered for…
Remembered for… Remembered for…
And look for and initiate external experience and activity — by knowing I have choices in life.
To do my life in my own way
And be who I am…. who I am…who I am…
And accept how I want to be remembered…by executing my power of purpose…
Live My —MEANING. LIVE LONGER, BETTER…
Longer, Better…LONGER BETTER…